Friday, December 29, 2006
So back to my title...Heaven and Hell. Well that's what the last 4, but especially the last 2 months have been. Heaven because I've got be home with my 2 beautiful kids...got to experience being a stay at home mom. I have loved every minute of it and I would not trade it for anything. But it's been Hell too. These last 2 months have been extremely difficult financially. We've had to pinch every penny possible (and then some). And then right when you think things couldn't get any worse..... Bam! Something else throws you for a loop. I don't want to whine, or to make anyone feel sorry for me...I'm really just venting here. It really has been Hellacious. Hell also because it's all ending here very soon. I have to go back to work in a week. We need me to go back to work. We needed me to go back 2 months ago....but *OH* I am dreading it! I am seriously freaking out about it. In fact just writing this, is making me want to stop, so I don't have to think about it anymore. It was hard when I went back to work after having Jake...but this time feels 10 times worse. I don't know what it is. Maybe because with Jake I didn't really know what I'd be missing...or maybe it was a relief in a way...you know to have some sort of normalcy after my "life" being rocked by this little being I was now responsible for. What I wouldn't give to be here...at home...being a mommy, listening to all the back talk, whining, crying and poopy diapers, and then the hugs, kisses, smiles and baby coos all day long. But I guess it's back to reality. Back to getting up at 5am. Back to hour long commutes. Back to actually getting dressed! Pajama's are clothes...you can not disagree with that!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Thursday, December 07, 2006
So, I just looked at my Blogger profile and it said I was a 250 year old male. Huh. I don't think so. I have no idea how that happened but I fixed it now. Maybe I should have left it that way? It's kind of funny. So, I tried my peanut butter fudge the other day. uhhh didn't turn out so well! I don't have a candy thermometer, so I took the expert advice of my mother and did it the old school way by dropping some of the hot sugar mixture into water. Says she: "if it forms a ball and stays a ball but it soft to the touch, it's ready". (Or something like that) Hummm well, I have nothing that even resembles fudge. It's more like peanut butter carmel sauce...and a whole lot of it! (it was a whole 9 x 13 dish of it! What the heck was I thinking???) Now, I'm not really blaming my mother for my misshap....I'm the one who decided to go at it without the candy thermometer....and I did get a little nervous when the sugar really started boiling. I thought it was going to boil over and make a huge mess. So I took it off the heat. It was totally my fault. But the good mommy I have is sending me a candy thermometer! I guess I'll try it again. Every year I have these great asperations of making great holiday treats (like I'm Martha Stewart or something) and every year something like this happens. Stuff just doesn't turn out the way I planned! I always, always try and make pretty decorated sugar cookies...you know just like on the cover of Martha's magazine...They never turn out. I've completely given up on that one this year. I had to face it...I don't like rolling out dough, I don't have the patience to decorate nicely, and I really don't even like sugar cookies. So why the heck should I make them??? Well, I'm not.
In other news...Megan rolled over on Monday! She just turned 3 months old last week. I couldn't believe it. Jake and I were decorating the tree...I heard her kind of grunting a little, I turned around and there she was on her tummy like a little turtle! I was totally shocked.
One more little random thought.....West Tracy is full of flies. Oh it's disgusting! I'm looking out the window now and there is no less than 100 flies perched on the side of my neighbors house. Gross! Aren't flies a summertime thing??
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Saturday, November 25, 2006
* My neighbor, never, ever has dirty dishes in her sink. Never, ever. You know how I know? Her kitchen window faces my stairwell window. She never closes the blinds in her kitchen and we don't have blinds on that window in our house. Therefore, every time I walk up or down the stairs, I peek into her kitchen. How can you not when it's staring you right in the face? I'm serious here folks. I mean I know they eat...I've seen them do that. But there is never one dirty dish in that sink. How does she do it? Does she do it just to spite me?...cause she knows I'm looking? Maybe they only use paper products and throw everything away. Nah. It's a conspiracy. If you are reading this and you never have dirty dishes in your sink...you suck! Just like my neighbor.
*babysitting....I have no idea how in the world I worked in childcare for 5 years. Seriously. I watched 2 of my nieces, Hannah and Caitlin, (both 4 1/2) today...plus of course my 2 kids. Don't get me wrong..I love these girls. But they are c-r-a-z-y. All 5 of these cousins (not counting Megan because she's too little!) but all 5 of these kids are insane. Yes, even my little Jake. When they are together, something magical happens. I'm not talking "Glinda Good Witch of the North"magic.... They go nuts. I guess I must have missed out on this growing up since I'm an only child and I only have one 1st cousin that is 6 years older than me. It actually is a really good thing. I mean it's awesome that they all are so close in age and they are lucky enough to all live near each other and get to grow up together. But seriously, having them all in one spot at one time can be pure insanity. Running up and down the stairs...jumping off beds...fishing in the fish tank (that one about sent me over the edge!)...going outside...coming inside...tattle telling...Me: "No food on the carpet! Stay in the kitchen with that!" "No, you can not have a Popsicle at 9:30 in the morning!" I'm sure they think I'm the meanest Auntie. I need to just relax a little. So that's why I'm wondering...how in the world did I do this with 14 of these little crazies (yes, 14) for 8 hours a day? It is a gift I no longer posses!
*Ok, I'm off to bed....eyes are barley staying open! Hope everyone has a good weekend!
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Isn't she so cute?! I just love this page! Only took me about 20 minutes to do. And only that long because I had to paint the letters and get those rinestones to stick. Just had to share this one. Not much else to report. Getting ready for Thanksgiving tomorrow...can't wait! Hope you all have a great day tomorrow!
Friday, November 17, 2006
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
|'What" will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com|
This is a funny website I saw on someone elses blog. It's pretty fun if you're just sitting around doing nothing!
Got some scrapbooking done...will post pictures of my pages tomorrow or I'll add them to my slide show.
Monday, November 13, 2006
So lately I've been pondering this epidemic of blogging. It just seems like all of a sudden every one's got a blog. Have you ever looked at the Blogger tool bar at the top of this page and pushed "next blog"? I'm just absolutely amazed at the amount of people out there doing this very thing at this very moment in time. I think it's fascinating. What also amazes me is how many people in different countries write blogs and how many other people in other countries use English as they're primary language. A lot of Asian cultures seem to be writing their blogs in English. People just seem to be the same wherever you go. I stumbled upon a Malaysian college student living in Melbourne Australia, a native Floridian who went to Costa Rica, fell in love with the country and decided to make it her home, and a guy in Phoenix hating is life in a cubicle (I can relate for sure!). Blogging just seems to feed my nosey nature! It's like peeking in your neighbors window to see what's going on over there! (noooo, i don't really do that!....well, maybe sometimes!) Anyway, if you're ever board, push "next blog" up there and see what somebody else is up to. It's kind of fun.
P.S...did you see my slide show down there on the right? Cool huh?
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
This is a little mini-album I made for my friend Erin. She just had a baby boy last week. Ryan Michael. This is Erin's 3rd baby. She's the type that likes the surprise and chooses not to find out the sex of the baby durring her pregnancy. Well, she had herself convinced that this baby was a girl. So I think she was pretty surprised when they said "it's a boy!"Anyways, I thought this would be a nice gift for the mom who already has everything. There's places for pictures and notes throughout the book. I hope she likes it.
Did anyone see the CMA awards the other night? We cought the highlights online yesterday...did you see Faith Hill's big doo doo??!! She totally freaked out when they called Carrie Underwood's name and not hers for Female Vocalist of the Year. To me it looked obvious that she expected to win. It looked like she was thinking "yep, here comes my name". It seemed like she's about ready to jump out of her seat to go get her award and then was totally shocked to hear somone elses name. She let out this big "What??" and through her hands up in the air. If you didn't see it, Google it because it's all over the internet. It's worth seeing! Shame on you Faith! You're a professional, you're supposed to keep that stuff to yourself!
Weird weather...So yesterday we go out for a walk and I come back dripping with sweat...it was 77 degrees at 11 o'clock in the morning. It's November! Then today, I come downstairs at around 6:30 and there's sprinkles on my patio, then it full on rained for a while. Now the sky is perfectly blue, clouds are all gone. I'm convinced it's Global Warming! LOL!!
Monday, November 06, 2006
Jake absolutley loves Megan...but he CAN NOT stand if someone is paying attention to her and not him. I can not tell you how frustrating the last couple of days have been. He will be perfectly content playing by himself as long as I am not paying attention to Megan. In other words, if she's sleeping. He'll be playing on the other side of the room and I'll have Megan on the floor just talking to her and all of a sudden he'll just start screaming. Well not screaming, but talking really, really loudly. He doesn't even realize he's doing it. Then he'll come right in between her and I and gets right in her face. He's just trying to play with her, but he doesn't understand that she doesn't want him in her face. I mean, he's like inches, centemeters maybe, from her little face. And of course he's squeeling loudly. I try and be nice and include him in my 'conversations' with her. But again, he doesn't understand that she doesn't know how to play "peek-a-boo". How do you explain that to a 3 year old? If I'm feeding her, he has to be sitting on any free part of my lap too. He climbs all over the chair or couch...wherever we're sitting. Again, right up in her face and mine. Like I said, I don't even think he knows he's doing it. And I feel bad because I'm constantly getting irritated and I end up kinda yelling at him. Then his feelings are hurt. Then I feel horrible. I feel like the meanest mommy sometimes. Am I the meanest mommy? Should I just be happy that he loves her so much and let it be? I guess I probably should. Sometimes I feel so spread thin. I just want Megan to feel loved. But I don't want Jake to forget we love him too. I think as they both get older, especially Megan, this will get easier and work itself out. I sure hope so.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Another funny story from the walk today...about a block down from the Kitty Lady, Jake found a rolly polly. This kid is totally into bugs. Anyways, he carried the little pill bug for at least 1/2 a mile, talking to it all the while about how he was the bugs' best friend. I kept telling him he was going to have to let the rolly polly go so he could go back to his house. Well finally, about 2/3 of the way back home, he decided to let it go. Here was the conversation with the rolly polly:
Jake: Bye rolly polly. You go home to you mommy and daddy ok? I see you again next year! You mommy is calling you. She be really really mad. Go home I said!
But the bug didn't move. I actually think it was dead already!
He just cracks me up. A real funny kid.
Both of the kids are napping right now. It's wonderful! A little quite time. I think I'll take this time to read my book...maybe take a little nap myself!
Friday, November 03, 2006
In response to a few comments to my last posting...Mom..I really don't have much talent. I just read a lot of magazines and get ideas. I rarely have my own design! Though, this one actually was my own idea! Anyways, I realize that yeah, I'm home right now so I do have some free time for scrapping. But no matter what, I just find time because it's what I like to do. It can be quite overwhelming though if you get behind. So Jami, I know what you mean about it all piling up. I've got at least 100 pictures in my Snapfish.com account waiting for the next payday so I can order my prints! 100 prints is a little scary because to me that may mean I get a little overwhelmed and then a little UNinspired. In which case I will choose not to scrap the pictures. But that brings up another good point. You don't have to scrap every picture. It's not necessary is it? I don't think so. As long as your getting your story told, what does it matter? And it doesn't matter if you don't think it looks good, because more than likely, everyone else will think it does! So just do it! If it makes you happy! Imbrace imperfection and just go with it!
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
After trying all day, I finnally got these pictures to upload! Whew!
I've decided that I really enjoy blogging. I've been reading a lot of blogs, so it's nice to have one of my own. This is becoming somewhat of my own digital scrapbook and hopefully, I'll be able to look back on my own blog entries for inspiration for my real scrapbooks.
I've been scrapbooking for maybe almost 10 years if I think about it. But now being a mom...of 2...I am just SO in to it. I've come to realize that scrapbooking isn't just about birthdays and holidays, but about remembering life as we live it day to day. I want to be able to sort of freeze time and be able to look back and remember what it was like when Jake was 3 and Megan was just born. You know, what I was feeling and thinking at the time. Wouldn't it be great to have something that told just exactly how your mother was feeling the day you were born? Something that will last beyond her life and yours? I have become adicted to taking pictures, I'm in the scrapbook store at least once a week, and I have a list a mile long of the pages I want to finish. I even think about it in my sleep! I've just been so inspired lately by the scrapbooking industry itself. I'm realizing that it isn't just a craft or a hobby. Yes, it is a creative outlet and that's probably why I enjoy it so much. But, it's also about telling your story and your kids stories. Wouldn't it be great if you could look back at all your grandma's pictures and know the stories behind them? My Grandmother has boxes and boxes and more boxes of old photographs. I remember we tried to go through them all and organize them when I was younger. There were so many pictures with no dates, no names, no places. Grandma sometimes had a hard time remembering even who was in the picture. I hope my kids can look back at their scrapbooks and get to know themselves, their families, and maybe most importantly, their mother. Because everytime I create something for them, I'm giving a little piece of myself in that layout.
Last night was super fun. Wish I had pics to share. :O( We had a whole band of pirates, a tinkerbell, and a sleeping beauty. Oh yeah, a baby pumpkin too!
I'll get the pictures up as soon as I can!
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
She seems to be doing much better today, back to her normal, cute self!
Getting ready for the Trick-or-Treat party tonight. Made my Jello for the Goblin Goo this morning. I also made 7 layer dip. I cleaned out the fridge too. Do you ever look in your fridge and go, "oh good greif....is that the casserole I made a month ago?" Yeah, that was me....That is me all the time. Bless the person who invented that throw away tupperware. It was made for me.
Gonna get the chili in the crockpot for later. I've also got some apple cider to stick on the stove and spinich dip.....Thus begins the Eat Fest until the end of the year. Two months of none stop eating. Uggg.
Will post pics tomorrow of the kiddies all dressed up!
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Halloween is in two days and Jake could not be more excited about it. He keeps asking every day..."Halloween coming mama?!" This afternoon we carved our pumpkins. We had 4 to carve. One really big one, a medium sized one and two smaller ones. We made Jake clean out the gunk from the inside. It was so funny, he thought it was gross and didn't want to get his hands dirty. We had such nice weather today, we carved the pumpkins outside on our driveway. We of course used those store bought patterns to carve the pumpkins, but you know what? They work so well, and I think they all turned out great. Ok, so I only carved one and Pete did the other three, but he had fun doing it! Megan was good she just sat in her little bouncer and watched.
Tommorrow I'll be getting ready for our little Halloween party. Pete has three sisters and between the 4 of us we have 6 kids. We all live here in Tracy so last year I invited all the kids over to trick-or-treat in our neighborhood. I made snacks and stuff for everyone before we went. It was really fun so we're doing it again this year. Since I'm not working right now I think I'll try and make some fun stuff for the kids. I got stuff to make Goblin Goo...A Jello and Kool-Aide drink. I think they'll like it. I'm still trying to think of maybe one other fun thing to make for them. Haven't decided yet though.
Anyways we had a good weekend. Hope everyone else did too!
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Isn't he cute?! Of course every mother thinks their kid is cute, but he really is...don't ya think? He's also very funny. Ever since he was a baby we have thought he's just so funny. I used to think..."well maybe I think he's funny because he's mine." But we've been told over and over by other people that he always makes them laugh. The other day he built a big "shark cage" out of blocks. " Look Mommy! Look at my shark cage!" He was very excited about it. I said, " That is totally awesome dude! You rock!" He got a very serious look on his face and said, " Mommy, I NOT a rock."
See, he doesn't even try to be funny, he just is!
You may have noticed that I changed the background of this blog. I thought this was a little more my style right now. I'm a scrapbooker and I'm really loving black paper with colorful accents. So, this seemed to suit my mood. For now anyways.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I keep trying to upload a picture into my profile, and it just won't work!
So this is a picture of Pete and I in June this year. We went to the coast for our 6th anniversary. I was about 7mths pregnant! But it was fun anyways :o) I don't see much of me in our new baby girl. To me she looks just like him. I never thought I'd end up with a blue eyed baby, but Megan sure looks like those bright blues are here to stay...Here she is today gazing up at the mirror above her swing... She absolutely loves looking in the mirror! Such a girl.
Monday, October 23, 2006
This one's for you!
Here it is...I started a blog for us. Inspired by our cousins in TX! (Hi Ya'll!)
Everyone else is doing it, why shouldn't we? right? It's actually a great idea to keep everyone in touch without sending a mass email or whatever. Most of the people mom will forward this too I haven't seen in years. I'm all grown up with a family of my own! I can't even believe it myself!
I'll try to update as often as possible with little notes and pictures. Hope you'll check in often and leave a comment if you like!