Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Drama, drama, drama.

Too much drama for this momma for sure.
As I've mentioned here before...I am not one for confrontation. I run and hide from it. I'm one that stands blubbering in the moment and thinks of all the "i shoulda said" things after the fact. When faced with confrontation, I usually clam up.
Yesterday was one for the books. Oh. My. Goodness. I will never forget it. Jake will never forget it. Oh how I wish I could give you guys all the details. I feel like I'm depriving you of the story. But being that this is a public blog, I don't think it would be appropriate for me to say too much.
I took my kids to meet some friends from church at this kids play place...kinda like Chuck E. Cheeses. We were having a great time, the kids were having an excellent time and then...BOOOM. There was a confrontation between another mother and me. And it was not good. Crazy. Wacky, even. Ooohh I want to write more. But I just don't think it would be right to put it all here for the world to read. The only reason I'm writing about it at all is because I just need to vent it out, you know? And this is like my diary in a way, and it wouldn't feel right to not mention it at all.
Yesterday, I felt pretty loopy after the whole thing. I felt sick to my stomach. When we got home I literally just sat here on the computer staring at the screen. I could hardly concentrate on anything. The mind can do crazy things to you. I actually thought "if I were at work, this would have never happened." It was a real eye opener for me. I tend to be the kind of person who likes to believe in the good in people....that most people are genuinely good. And this lady wasn't bad. Not at all.... I can sometimes get lost in my own world and forget that there are people who are REALLY against the things I believe in. That there are people who are not going to agree in the way I chose to live my life, or raise my children. Anyway, I think there were many lessons learned by all involved. And lots of reflection for me today. I'm a good mom. I know it, and most importantly, my kids know it. That's all that really matters.
I know this is all kind of vague, but thanks for reading anyways! It feels good just let it go.


camport said...

Dang it, I was gonna call you today and got tied up packing. I've gotta know the rest of this story, b/c as far as confrontation goes, we are two peas in a pod!

I hope you don't dwell on the "i should've"s too long.


nicole said...

Even though I don't know the details I totally know how you feel - had one of those confrontations myself at our little mall play area a while back - and it seriously left me shaking for two hours afterward!!
Hope you are feeling better about it all today. Also glad that you mentioned 'lessons learned' - usually after the fact you look back and realize what the lesson was and then it all makes a little more sense.

Melissa said...

It must have been one of those days. I am NOT kidding. I had a huge confrontation yesterday. I had the same emotions and such happeneing. Today I am still realing from it all, mainly because it is not over and I must deal with it still.
I will try to call and we can talk later...

I hope you have a better day....

Jami said...

NEVER let anyone make you question your parenting skills. Even those of us whom have never seen you parent in person can tell from your writings what a great mom and wife you are. You love those babies and that man of yours, and all else is a mute point. Feel great about your blessings and let the rest just slide away!

Cheryl Wray said...

Oh, man, that sounds AWFUL!!! I just hate that you had to deal with it and, I'm with everyone else who has commented, in saying that...You are a great mother and you have strong beliefs. And don't feel bad about that! I'm SURE you did the right thing!