Too much drama for this momma for sure.
As I've mentioned here before...I am not one for confrontation. I run and hide from it. I'm one that stands blubbering in the moment and thinks of all the "i shoulda said" things after the fact. When faced with confrontation, I usually clam up.
Yesterday was one for the books. Oh. My. Goodness. I will never forget it. Jake will never forget it. Oh how I wish I could give you guys all the details. I feel like I'm depriving you of the story. But being that this is a public blog, I don't think it would be appropriate for me to say too much.
I took my kids to meet some friends from church at this kids play place...kinda like Chuck E. Cheeses. We were having a great time, the kids were having an excellent time and then...BOOOM. There was a confrontation between another mother and me. And it was not good. Crazy. Wacky, even. Ooohh I want to write more. But I just don't think it would be right to put it all here for the world to read. The only reason I'm writing about it at all is because I just need to vent it out, you know? And this is like my diary in a way, and it wouldn't feel right to not mention it at all.
Yesterday, I felt pretty loopy after the whole thing. I felt sick to my stomach. When we got home I literally just sat here on the computer staring at the screen. I could hardly concentrate on anything. The mind can do crazy things to you. I actually thought "if I were at work, this would have never happened." It was a real eye opener for me. I tend to be the kind of person who likes to believe in the good in people....that most people are genuinely good. And this lady wasn't bad. Not at all.... I can sometimes get lost in my own world and forget that there are people who are REALLY against the things I believe in. That there are people who are not going to agree in the way I chose to live my life, or raise my children. Anyway, I think there were many lessons learned by all involved. And lots of reflection for me today. I'm a good mom. I know it, and most importantly, my kids know it. That's all that really matters.
I know this is all kind of vague, but thanks for reading anyways! It feels good just let it go.
5 comments:
Dang it, I was gonna call you today and got tied up packing. I've gotta know the rest of this story, b/c as far as confrontation goes, we are two peas in a pod!
I hope you don't dwell on the "i should've"s too long.
:)
Even though I don't know the details I totally know how you feel - had one of those confrontations myself at our little mall play area a while back - and it seriously left me shaking for two hours afterward!!
Hope you are feeling better about it all today. Also glad that you mentioned 'lessons learned' - usually after the fact you look back and realize what the lesson was and then it all makes a little more sense.
It must have been one of those days. I am NOT kidding. I had a huge confrontation yesterday. I had the same emotions and such happeneing. Today I am still realing from it all, mainly because it is not over and I must deal with it still.
I will try to call and we can talk later...
I hope you have a better day....
NEVER let anyone make you question your parenting skills. Even those of us whom have never seen you parent in person can tell from your writings what a great mom and wife you are. You love those babies and that man of yours, and all else is a mute point. Feel great about your blessings and let the rest just slide away!
Oh, man, that sounds AWFUL!!! I just hate that you had to deal with it and, I'm with everyone else who has commented, in saying that...You are a great mother and you have strong beliefs. And don't feel bad about that! I'm SURE you did the right thing!
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