Wednesday.

*he♥rt wood. It's this neat? a friend of ours cut a tree in their yard and this was it's shape. So cool.
*I still find it amazing how the internet has allowed me to find some of the best friends I could ever ask for. I understand how weird it can sound, but I am so thankful for the friendships I have made through this silly computer. Yes: real, tangible friendships.
*our Sunday School teacher is having a little girls tea party this Saturday. This has been in the works for a long time and is finally coming together this week. She's even making dresses for all the girls! I went over yesterday to 'help' and they are turning out so cute. It's going to be fun. I've been asked to take some formal pictures for the event so I've been scouring Pinterest and the www looking for inspiration on tea and garden parties. It's good for me to have a project to focus on right now. What will I do come Sunday??
*grieving is such a funny thing. For me it seems to ebb and flow...come and go. Mostly I'm fine. I go about my day smiling and laughing and doing things like normal. But it's still lying right there just barely under the surface. Sometimes it feels like if someone comes along and touches me I might just burst. But I hold it together. It seems to come right when I turn the light off at night and turn over to sleep. I could have fallen asleep reading, but as soon as the light goes off...it's like it's just... there. Present. Sadness. Anger. I expect it might be like that for a while.
*Please don't think I'm wallowing in sadness or anger. I'm not. I'm simply just stating that I am still grieving. The summer after high school graduation one of my best friends lost her mother. She was so sad. And I just did not get it. Not fully. I just don't think you can until you go through it.
*my girl and I have been spending lots of time together lately. It's archery practice season. So the boys have been going to bow and arrow shoots on Monday's, Wednesdays and sometimes even Friday's! I'm glad that Pete and Jake have that. And I'm glad me and Megs get some girl time. But dang...3 nights a week?!
*We are currently waiting for them to come home from Archery practice. But I am listening to Adele radio on Pandora and it's awesome and Pete wouldn't really like it so I guess that's a good thing. Me 'n Megs are singing out loud.
*Summer fun--free kids bowling! Check out this link and see if there is a bowling ally near you (there's tons! every state and Canada) From May to September M-F 9-5 pm everyday kids bowl 2 free games! All you have to do is sign up and they send you coupons in your email every Sunday. (you do have to pay for shoe rental though, but that's not bad) Plus you can also buy a family pass for 24.99 and for all summer you can go every day and play 2 games. That's a HUGE savings. Bowling is EXPENSIVE y'all. You can have up to 4 adults on your family pass. So that's mom + dad + grandparents or babysitters or whoever. It's a deal.
*Mothers Day was nice. My mom came down on Saturday and spent the night. Megan wouldn't leave her alone and was so happy grandma was going to sleep in her 'underbed'. You know, the bed that is under the other one. :) I'm so thankful for my mom. She is.....amazing. She's taught me so much. I think what stands out the most to me right now is that she is incredibly level headed and has SO much class. And she's brave. In situations that most people in her place wouldn't even have the guts to show up to, she walks in and holds her head high. Because it's the right thing to do. I love you mom. I want to be like you when I grow up. :)