And I need to vent.
I'm trying not to jump to conclusions, but seriously.... Why am I always the one that can't say no? Or is always willing to help? Why am I always the one that says sure I can do that. Even though I sorta kinda don't really want to? Why is it that I'm always the one that says sure you can borrow that, no problem! {and then never gets it back} or hey I'm going out to the store, lemme see if I can find that for you and i'll even bring it over! or here, I have an extra, you can have it? Why am I always that person? And why is it that whenever I need a favor, (which isn't all that often) it's: ooops, I didn't get your text. ? (and I'm not relying on text messages, i'm just using that as an example)
Argh! Sometimes I just feel so taken advantage of. Or not important. Or maybe it's just they think I won't get mad so they just walk all over me? I don't mean to have a pitty party. But it's just frustrating some times. I really like this person but sometimes I feel like maybe I'll always be 2nd to someone or something else. Sometimes I wish I could be somebody's #1. {besides my husband and my kids and my parents. even though they're the only ones that really matter in the end}
Anyhoo.... That's all I'm going to say about that.
9 comments:
Because you are wonderful ... and in the end I firmly believe you reap what you sow (even if it's not harvested from the same person ... it will come back to you!) Hugs, Kim
i agree with kim...
and i've also been there - and thought to myself never again am i doing something for them/anyone....but it is just who you are - and it will come back to you.
hope you are feeling better about the situation now...sometimes just a little time helps too :)
hugs to you corey!
Pitty parties are fine. I've been having one all week. I'm feeling VERY out of sight-out of mind. It's okay to change your mind. It's okay to say, "Y'know what, I know I told you yes, but it's not gonna work out." Wiggle out, girl. I do agree with Kim and Nicole, too, but I know how you feel. I'm that girl, too. Lately, I've been screw me once shame on you, but I WON'T give you the chance to screw me again.
Good luck with whatever situation you're dealing with. This is why caller id was invented. :)
You can never go wrong when you do the right thing.
Every choice in life is subordinate to the moral choice.
I hear you on this one BIG time....I thought it was always me!!!
I don't mean to add on the pity party but how about those people that ask to borrow something and when they're done they make YOU come round to pick it back up!! HELLO didn't YOU borrow it FROM ME!!! Or they give it back broken and pretend like it was that way when you gave it to them...even though they know you have OCD and would never have given it to them like that!! Aghh
Anyway I agree with Kim, you really can't go wrong with doing right, but sometimes it just bites.
I've grown bitter over it and the only people that suffer are the people that wanted my help in the first place!! Oh well.
Oh yeah and you do reap what you sow and that's the guilt that makes me fall back and do it every time....I saw to myself..."I'd want someone to do it for me if I were in that situation so let me go ahead and do it!" aghhhhhh !!!
Oh yeah I really do want the Taj Mahal Lego...I LOVE LEGO!!!
you are not alone....I agree with everybody else, it will come back to you 10,000 fold.
Hold your head up strong my dear. You can can say no.
it is a hard balance between being giving, and then feeling like a welcome mat.
One of the best things someone told me was "Err on the side of being kind..." OUCH!
I have also learned, to do what I can, when I can, but that it is ok to say no at times. Just do kind things expecting nothing in return...
ps there is someone who DOES see all your kindness too, and He is a big fan of compassion... ;)
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